So it's December and Christmas is fast approaching. I was thinking what do I want for Christmas and then I remember my mother. For those who didn't know my mother past away about 4 months ago. To tell you the truth when I think about her I just feel like crying. She is the nicest person to me; we may have some bad times but still she is a kind person. Ever since she died I felt like I cause her death even though she died from an illness. I feel guilty not spending enough time with her. I always think "Why her. Why not me instead."
Even though I recover from her lost; deep inside I feel lonely, alone, and depress. I just don't want to admit to my friends and family until now. So what's my wish for Christmas? Well just one wish. It's not too big or not too small. All I wish Christmas is to see my mother again. Even though she past away I still want to see her again. I want to see her face. I want to hear her voice. I want to tell how much I love her. I want to hug her just this Christmas. Just this Christmas.
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